25 Things About Masagua
So this is a thing that’s going on facebook right now, and Greta tagged me, so here I go. I thought that it would make a good blog entry, too.
1. I am sad most of the time, but I am not as depressed as I used to be. I am learning to tell the difference.
2. I long for close, dear friends who are interested in me and what I think and say. I think my personality might make this impossible, though.
3. I ache for tenderness, but find none.
4. I would sacrifice just about anything to be part a manned trip to Mars or other long deep space mission.
5. I feel like I am a terrible father.
6. Morag and Katya are probably the best things that have ever happened to me.
7. I long for intimacy with men, but, in general, I hate gay men.
8. For 2.5 year or so, I was in a polyamourous relationship with Morag and a man named David. It didn’t work out so well. I ended up slicing up my left wrist with a kitchen knife. Never going back again.
9. I have had sex with 8 of my facebook friends. You know who you are. Any others care to guess?
10. When I was 21 or so, I left my home and job on a whim and drove from Medina, OH to Wake Forest University to confess my love to Aaron Gibson.
11. I secretly rejoice when cops are killed. I was twice threatened with bodily harm by police, had my guitar stolen by police, was cut with wire cutters by police (I’ll show you the scar), watched a woman get sexually molested by police while being stopped for no reason and forced to sit in his car while they called the drug dogs – they didn’t find anything and let us go.
12. I would like to know what it’s like to kill another human being.
13. When people get angry with me or disagree with me, I fantasize about doing them bodily harm.
14. I think it’s funny when people think that I think that I better than them. Give me break. Do you have any idea what I think about myself? If you did, you would wail.
15. People don’t seem to understand that when I say that people are stupid, I am including myself. Hello, I am a person… (Stupid!)
16. I am most happy after a nice long run.
17. I stay up too late all the time. Boo.
18. I am jealous of just about everyone.
19. I am absolutely terrified of death and have had panic attacks about it.
20. My father is so pathetically weak that he chose his piece of shit partner over me.
21. I love to take walks with my daughter.
22. I wish I could just enjoy things without having to feel like I need to be “good” at them.
23. I enjoy getting injections of anesthetic prior to dental procedures.
24. I think that people who believe in God are fucking morons.
25. I like the word “fuck.”
26. This is very therapeutic, and I think that I will do it again.
January 30, 2009 at 2:30 pm
Absofreakinlutely fantastic post!!!! I love it!!!!!
Reminds me of when I was a kid, and another kid would have a box, and I’d say, “What’s in the box?”, and they’d say “None of your business.”, and I’d say, “Come on…let me see what’s in there, please!”, and they’d say, “OK, I’ll give you one little peek.”, and I’d get to look in the box, and whatever I saw in there was so cool that I’d remember it for years and years.
Thanks for the peek.
Mo
February 3, 2009 at 7:57 am
Hey Mas,
What do you think it says that I found more than a couple of these in common with myself? I don’t know about you but it’s making me feel more normal to hear that someone else is more like me than I thought. Thanks for being willing to share, most of us aren’t ready to be honest with ourselves let along the world. And….just in case you didn’t know – I pick your brain because I am not only interested in what you say and do but I also value it very much. I actually find you to be a very Good man and Father just as quirky as the rest of us.